& when I need a break, it's like I have nowhere else to go too. Except maybe to Kitkat. mm.
One day soon I'm going to find courage in escaping out of my country by myself. Getting lost in an unfamiliar place, & talking to strangers or something.
I used to be the one always asking friends to meet up for gatherings and the one doing all the planning. But I got tired of it. Especially when people do not even bother to reply, I feel like I'm the only one holding on. Now I've become the one, the one who can't be bothered anymore. Too lazy to meet people or whatever. I have learned to care less.
Yes, it's pretty lonely at times. Less tiring though, & soon you just get used to being alone.
Quite often I would think of going to many different places with someone, not just anyone. A special someone I do not know yet. That someone whom I've always been looking forward to meet. The dream that I always have, a family, a home with every furniture personally picked with my love. What I'm only looking forward to now, is the future. Yet it seems so far away, that I do not know when or whether I can reach.
Its okay though. I'm thankful enough for what I have.
My dreams I'll chase myself, I will get there someday.
You don't always have to be alone :) .. find someone to spend time with who makes u happy
ReplyDeleteThanks Anon :) but that's if I can find that someone.
ReplyDeleteMeanwhile I'm learning independence :P